I'm dropping biology. I asked my professor if I should, and he was like "yes." Soo...I am. Which is good I guess. Whatever, I'm over it.

Moving on...

I don't like this weird feeling that I have. It's like I don't even understand myself. I have these weird feelings and conflicting thoughts and it's seriously like World War III inside my head right now. My head is saying one thing, my heart is saying another. Then my heart is ready to concede and my head is like "WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?! YOU CAN'T GIVE UP NOW!" So then my heart is like "Good point, I'm holding strong." Then they go back to hating each other and battling it out. See, it doesn't make sense to anyone because it's that complicated and retarded. Stupid head and stupid heart. I wish I could control either one. I want to follow my heart, but my head is saying it's a futile attempt and I should just give up. But my heart is saying that I can't give up, because I know that when I give up, that's when something will happen. ARGH.

I wish I could explain myself. Or someone else could explain me to me. I'm just a mixed up jumble of thoughts and words, floating around with internal conflict and hoping I manage to make it out of here with only a few scrapes and bruises.

Whatever floats your boat,
T