Last Place..Again

So tonight I walked home by myself. For the second time in my college career, for the second time this year so far, I walked myself home, alone. And both times I was with male friends who probably should have walked with me. I honestly thought more highly of my friends. But no, I was left to walk alone, no one to make sure I got home safe, no one to make sure nothing happened to me. What's even worse about both of these situations? The guys in both situations didn't even bother to text me or call me to make sure I made it home safe. Not only did they not walk with me, or even offer, but didn't care enough to send a quick text asking if I was okay.

I'm so sick of this. Even if these guys weren't two of my best friends, as the gentlemen that I thought they were they should have, at the very least, offered to walk me home. In fact, they should have insisted on it. What guy lets a girl walk home alone? The first time I was left to walk alone, in the rain at 2 a.m. because a guy wanted to "show me it was over." Mission accomplished, jerk. Now granted, he has since been forgiven and we are still good friends, but that doesn't make the move any less of a jerk move. Tonight, I was ditched (for the second night in a row) by a close guy friend. Tonight, I was ditched for an ugly, gap-toothed, leggings-as-pants wearing slut with an even uglier bushy-eyebrowed, shorts and stilettos-wearing (oh hey, by the way, it's January..why are you wearing SHORTS?!) twin. So it comes down to this, again: I'm one of your best friends, you claim you care about me, you claim you want the best for me. But as soon as some easy girl who will give you some comes along, I'm just some girl you know. And even though I have no interest in you romantically, it sucks being shunted aside and watching you slum around with some skank. You can do better, and I want you to. Because, guess what? I actually care about you. I don't just say it, I mean it. Unlike you.

I don't really know what's going on right now with the men in my life. I've always been able to rely on them, but lately they are letting me down. I don't feel safe with them anymore and I'm really losing respect for them. It really sucks. Whatever. It's your life, do what you will. But don't expect me to sit around and watch you screw up. I'm done trying and I'm done caring until the friendship is reciprocated. When you decide to man up and treat me like I deserve to be treated as your friend, then we'll talk. Until then, please just go away. Thanks.

Done,
T